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Well, we've been in Colorado for a week. It feels like we've been here so much longer.

Every day has had ups and downs, failures and success. I guess that's normal, but it seems really magnified. I've been emotional and sensitive and tired. It's hard to organize everything I have to say about what's been happening and my feelings about it.

Currently we are sleeping/staying in the guest room of my in-laws house. Our motor home needs some work before it is ready for us. Unfortunately, it is a little more work than we were anticipating, so that's a bit of a set back, which is a little frustrating. Our cats have to stay in the room all the time because of my in-laws dog and family member allergies. Actually, I'm not too upset about this because the motor home is a small living area as well, so it's a good test. They seem to be doing okay with it so far. They sometimes cry a little if they can hear us in a different part of the house, but I think it's just because they want to be with us, not because they are upset with being in a small space.

The bed we are sleeping on is the same size as what we will have in the motor home, which is smaller than what we are used to. My back has really been hurting, and I'm not sure if it is the mattress, the fact that I am not used to the small bed, or something else. It is hard to be accustomed to more sleeping space and then downgrade. But we bought a memory foam for our mattress in the camper. We will probably test it out on our bed in the house. I hope it helps, because waking up hurting every day is not fun.

Ben got a job working with his brother as an apprentice electrician, which is what we have been hoping for all along. We don't know exactly when he starts, or how long the work will last, but he will be making some good money for the time being. Everything just seemed to fall in place with this job. It is definitely a blessing.

I turned in my resume and application at a local Bible College. I was able to speak with the Human Resources lady, and they aren't hiring now, but may have an open position closer to when school starts up. Other than that, I'm not sure where to look. My "fall back" is to apply at Starbucks. I don't have a back up to my fall back yet.

The motor home is one of the more exciting parts of life right now. We bought paint and flooring. We've ripped out a rotten wall, and sanded the floor. Before we can officially inhabit it we need to replace the wall, paint, put down the flooring, and steam clean the mattress. There is more work to be done, but we can do that while living in it. We are hoping to get the bulk of the renovations done before Ben starts work, which we think will be in about a week and a half.

Emotionally, I am all over the place. I sobbed the first night we were here. It was just overwhelming.We've left friends and the only home we've ever had. The job I had for three years, where I was loved. I felt like I didn't know what I had left it all for. Things have been better since then, though I still have my moments of doubt and sadness. We've had some good time with family and friends, which we have really enjoyed. Time spent with family definitely makes it seem like our decision to move here was correct.

I'm also having to get used to being around people more than has been normal. I was by myself for a good portion of the last 3 years, so I didn't have a lot of the issues that come with dealing with people. And not dealing with people in a bad way, but just at all. It is taking some getting used to. I don't know if transitions are ever easy. This one certainly isn't. But I do think it is good for me.This is the first actual alone time I've had since we've been here, and I think I was needing it. So I'm relaxing with the kitties, doin' computer stuff.

There is probably more I could say, but this is a long post already. I think I will leave off here, with some pictures. 

Ben entering our home.

The inside before the redo.

The other direction of the inside before the redo.